February 2010
lmfao.
he’s one funny guy. sure he can be an asshole, but when he wants to he can have me laughing nonstop.
cheese.
“Oh my sweet darling! For a moment I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Now I see that I am very much alive, and heaven has been brought to me.”
13 attempts. 13 successes. hahaha WTF.
http://linesthataregood.com/
January 2010
time to
figure out what i’m all about for my art journal.
http://www.formspring.me/rebeccataylor
“That’s the nice thing about dreams, the way you wake up before you fall.”
– Wasted, Marya Hornbacher (via nostalgicdreams) (via suzywire)
epiphany.
last night my brother and i had an odd conversation. it was as if…we were bonding. and in the midst of it he taught me a valuable lesson.
i can’t remember what he said exactly[i wish i could, he phrased it so very well], but it went to the effect of…
“no rebecca, look at it like that movie[500 days of summer]. had tom never met summer and gone to hell and back with her,...
rest in peace.
catcher in the rye was without a doubt one of the best books i’ve ever been assigned for school, let alone ever had the pleasure of reading.
salinger brought about a range of emotions through holden caulfield that any fucked up teenager can relate to. he wrote holden so well that i became attached to his character to the point where he cried, i cried; he screamed, i was outraged. i loved...
hysteria. →
still don’t quite understand the song, but for some reason i can connect to it.
bravery.
i wish i was braver.
i’d ask you how you really felt.
i’d tell you how you made me feel.
i’d live with more chances at happiness.
but i’m not brave and i hate that i’ll never know what could’ve been if i was.
maybe i need you to be brave for me.
“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade, and then throw it in the face of the...”
– Cassandra Clare (via kari-shma)
eurgh
today was gunna be a fun day:) it turned into a lame day:(
woke up with the worst headache. slept a few more hours[putting off my plans..], only to finish getting ready and then have my friend be busy. dammit.
i’m now bored. with a headache.
i wanna watch a movie!:)
tomorrow?
senior trip to the aquarium tomorrow.
not going:) sleeping in, chillin all day, might even see a movie.
who knows what to do on a wednesday?
“slut: a woman with the morals of a man”
– jessie.
yeah.
i’m so fucking sick of wanting what i can’t have.
also, i think that all nickelodeon shows from back in the 90’s need to be made available for renting purposes.
everyday.
i feel like my life is stuck on repeat.
wake up, eat, school, bathroom, eat, sleep. repeat. five days out of seven are monotonous and draining. the other two are occasionally interesting[and occasionally is not enough]. i need some change in my life. some character perhaps.
the truth about me.
people ask me constantly why i’m sad, my response “i don’t know.”
well that’s bullshit. i damn well know why i’m sad, but owning up to why is more difficult than being sad[maybe]. i do need to get it out though, so go ahead if you read this judge me i honestly don’t care.
fuck being single. i hate it. i’m seventeen and being single is the worst...
my track of thoughts.
i am incredibly bored today and therefore have far too many thoughts running through my mind at once. so time to get em out…
i want you. i want to sit on a couch, curl up and watch tv with you more than anything.
i’m tired of not being trusted and being watched under a microscope. back the fuck off.
its so damn difficult to be happy for you when you have exactly what i want.
i...
liar.
two things have been frustrasting me in the past few hours and this would be an obnoxiously long post if i went on about both of them. so here’s to the first most annoying issue…
Lies, the building blocks of society. i lie, you lie, we have all been lied to and know how much it can hurt, or the relief it can bring. what i don’t get anymore is how to distinguish lies from the...
just go.
this past monday[no school] i was driving on I-285 with my friend when i said, “you know i could get us to st. simons right now” and she said “let’s gooooo!”[kidding of course] well i had to work way too hard not to “miss” exit 37[our exit]. i just wanted to keep going and it was that simple.
we could’ve been there before rush hour and escaped the...
hypocrisy.
we’re not friends, we’re acquaintances. our conversations are shallow and meaningless, when by this point in my life i want (need) more than that.
you were fun at first(and you still can be, when its “my turn” to be your “best fraaaan”) and having you as a friend was an experience(good/bad=undecided). the longer we’re together the more i can’t stand...
frustration.
tell a doctor you feel depressed(not that you are depressed, just that you feel depressed) and they tell you to reach out if you have thoughts of suicide and/or hurting yourself. they say it so many times(as if hearing it once was not enough)it becomes annoying. they no longer talk to you like you’re sane, they talk to you like you are unstable.
I JUST FEEL FUCKING SAD. i am not suicidal. i...
whistle4thechoir:
happiness.
something remarkable just happened.
i haven’t been the happiest person i’ve ever been lately and this one song in particular always brought out the worst in me. it could bring me to tears before the chorus started. its been months since i could listen to that song and not cry, not think about you and all the shitty memories that left their mark on me.
well, today i listened to the...
i caved... →
ask me questions:)
today.
a lot of shit has happened to me that should have made me feel weak. but it didn’t.
today was the first time i’ve felt weak in i can’t even remember how long.
today was the day i completely broke down in front of my family. no one has ever seen that side of me before. i refused to let anyone see that side of me before for so many reasons. but today it happened. it did not feel...
500 days of summer
i just saw 500 days of summer.
without a doubt one of my favorite movies.
full of remarkable, memorable life lessons & lessons in “love.”
everyone needs to see this movie.
“How do people, like, not curse? How is it possible? There are these gaps in...”
– this made my life.
Nick Hornby (via anditslove)
